Things will be better ,dont give up,
he is the looser!!and you will end up with
a better boy .
be strong lovee.

ilyyyy <3

awe. well, take your time. i'll be waiting for your next entry, whenever it gets put up. :] yeahh, anxiety is no fun. it faded and was gone for a while for me too, but recently it's gotten back up again, so i've been getting a lot of help for it now. things are a bit better since my last entry though. :]

hope you're well~

tellmexwherexarexyou<333

omg. i freaked out when i realized you had updated. i've missed you so much!! welcome back<333 :] your writing is always so inspiring. i'm here to read your life story~

tellmexwherexarexyou<333

oh thankyou so much

i can't wait to read more and more.
Have a good day dear

welcome back dear,
i always read your entries again and again,
i'm so happy that you are back.

Much love

I absolutly love your entriess soo much.
i can really relate to every single one.
Mucho Love <3

oh the saddest part is.
that i hve had a boy for over a year.
who is the most amazing boy and spoils me to the end of the earth.
but i have been in love with the one im talking about for two years.
and he is running away.
so im not gonna chase him anymore.
its now my turn to run away.
and im kinda thinking i wont look back either.
he missed his chance.

thanks for your comment.

i appreciate the input. 

i went back an re-read my entry. probably wasn't my best moods at the time of the creation of it.

your writing...it's very wondferul.

take care;;

This is beautiful but sad also. You're not alone....

Take care of yourself,

Jax <3

thank you

sometimes simple is best.
but the sad thing is.
he never called.
&& the sadder thing is.
i didnt exspect him too.

[[happynewyear.]

thankyou ! <3

&&i've already posted up a lot of pictures in my past entries, but if i do get to go to the movies with him i'll try to take some there. but for now, here's some to tide you over until then. :]

i think this vid i took of him is the most recent thing i have...on this entry here. it was taken in one of our many library trips. :] &&i really really love this picture that my friend took for us. i'm pretty sure there's an explanation on that entry saying why we're dressed like that...lol.

anyway, i hope you enjoy the pics. ily!! :]]

tellmexwherexarexyou<333

this is so sad && beautiful...so true too. i love ittt<3

&&thank you so much for your comments ! yesss, those dreams are scary. D: and thank you! yeah, things have been working out. :] thanks for everything!!

tellmexwherexarexyou<3333

this is so amazingly beautiful~~ you are such a talented writer. too good, too good<3 bahaha. i'm just kidding. but you are amazing. :]

tellmexwherexarexyou<333

I love your style. Its very cryptic in a way, but girly. Relatible. And i see you are a fan of mine, lol. Yeah. "This town is for dieing, this town is for show." I wrote that in american history class actully. That is how i write most of my poetry. A line or a sentence comes into my head, and i kind of write the rest as i go. Intill it just comes together. Its my headline on myspace.com/xxx_twilight_xxx. Yeah. You are a very talented girl. :]

did i ever tell you that you have an extremely amazing way with words?

gahh. you're too good<3

anyway, thank you ! :]

tellmexwherexarexyou<333

i know exactly how you feel...sometimes you just have to choose what you want && run with it;; give it all you got and fight as hard as you can, even if things don't turn out right. that's what i learned after i went through the same thing with this one guy i liked who treated me terribly whenever i decided to come back to him...

&&awwe, thank you so much ! :] i feel the same way about your diary. your entries are always so inspiring<3 you're such an amazing writer!!

i hope things get better for you soon, lovee

tellmexwherexarexyou<33

Laughter can be found
[in the darkest of places]
but only when someone remembers
to turn on the light.`

Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire, Dumledore.

=]

You can tell I'm a fan.

By the way, don't worry. I felt teh same way when I turned 13. Becoming a teenager is a state of mind. Don't let it get to you. You still have a chance to act like a kid. Don't be in a rush to grow up too fas.t =]

and thats coming from soon to be 15-year-old

hehe

*Janet*

You can use whatever writings of mine that you want to and you don't have to give me credit(thanks for the consideration, though). Everything I write is for everybodies use.

There are plenty of people trying to make a difference. A lot of them are wealthy and a lot of them are poor cuz they live right in the middle of poverty and need. Some politicians claim to want to make a difference, but the bottom line is the money that is made.

Stay in motion
Take your love potion
And everything will be ok.
We say praise you
We say f*** you
And we have no doubt
That we are saved.
Oh but we're depraved
It's how we are made
And we die every day
But not in the spirit.
I want to be it
The center of attention
The one that's claims affection
And save me from affliction.
I have no cross to bear
And I think that it's fair
Cuz look at what I've sacrificed.
Love IS the movement
And if you aren't apart of it
Then you'll be treated like sh*t
And you will die,
So don't even try
To sneak on by
You won't make it out alive...

This poem is not about you. It's about me and my experience. I hope that you like it. You can use it if you want to, although I think it's a bit
controversial for that!

I just discovered your diary and I hope it's ok that I added you to my faves. Your words inspired me to write a poem. I dedicate it to you.

I took a fall
I'll tell it all,
I became obsession
Seeking possession
Not only have I moved on
But I don't know where I belong...
Standing before the judge
What would I say
I have no excuse
For the way I lived everyday.
Losing my feeling
Apathy,
Craving the sympathy
Happily,
What are my choices
Do I move on?
I only wish to be strong
I wish somewhere that I belong-
Would you love me
Would you hate me?
Will you throw me away
Or will you take me?
Down on my knees
Is good enough for me
But means nothing to you-
In the end
We are through
Standing before you
I looked down
Saw the fire
Nothing to inspire the truth
So I am banished from you...
Banished from you.

     This is
     wonderful.

in all honesty, ^{_{i feel the same way.}}

thanks a bunch
it's juss hard to tell what i'm really feeling
if i really am sorry
cause i've been down this road so many times before
and i screw up constantly. :/

yeahh i liked that line too hey lol.
it juss came out, i wasn't trying to be poetic lol.

):

*hugs*
loneliness.
how i despise thee at times...

don't be afraid to come back and write.
even if it seems like the same thing over.
it's your diary in the end.
:]

aw, i didn't see your comment till now. :}
you can copy my stufff. just as long as you don't steal it xD

this entry is amazing babes; i'm nothing compared to you.

how's your summer going?

ilyyy.<333

Aww, thank you so much for all of your kind words...I can't tell you how much I appreciate your comment. You're so sweet! =^___^=

Hnn...Well, I'm thinking I might give it to him once school starts again, but I'm still thinking about it...

Thanks for everything though! <33

tellmexwherexarexyou

This entry is A M A Z I N G. I envy you and your writing skills. &I know how you feel. I can really relate to this.

tellmexwherexarexyou<333

i agreeeee your an amazing writer:)
i wish i cd expsress my slef lik u do lol :)
xxx

You're a good writer, I look forward to reading your entries. Try not to let teachers bring you down, they arent worth it! *hugs*

Take care, keep safe,

Jax

I'm sorry about Brendan, it doesn't seem fair. I hope he will be OK.

Take care of yourself,

Jax *hugs*

Yes, that's exactly what I meant. The way your parents and teachers don't take you seriously. The way your friends have their own dramas to deal with so they don't have time for yours. The way you put the pressure on yourself not to say too much otherwise you're vulnerable and people will take advantage of that vulnerability. Yes, the pressure of being and teenager and keeping your tears inside.

Why doesn't what you say mean anything to anyone else? It's so thought provoking. I love to read it because it makes me think. Your writing is beautiful, keep at it.

Jax

x x x

Wow... If I'm awesome then what are you? I write about trivial little things like my day whereas you write about things that matter like that. I'm impressed and inspired

Keep writing, Jax

I love this poem! I mean, it's sad but it's beautiful.

Please keep writing,

Jax

Hm..I get what you are saying.It is very true.

x3

Marissa

This was very inspiring.
I must add you to my faves =]]
<33

heya

i should feel glad that at least i got him, infact i am,

im gonna start thinking positively :)

x

Awww.
Well I'm glad you're back<3
To me, writing is breathing.
So even if I'm not writing on here,
I'm writing somewhere else.
On a different site.
On myspace.
Offline.
Somewhere....
[:
So what have you been up too?
I hop e you're okay, you seem sad :(
<#3

Just thought I'd say this entry is beautiful

it's been six months since i touched a razor

'But these days I don't even think to grab the razor.'

Not in my case. Sadly.

x

that was a really good song!

Marissa

Hey the poems are really good!and you are really pretty and the girl I see is a girl who looks very deep in her heart

Marissa

I like you're entry

Thanks for your comment

*squee* >.< Me loves Lost!!!!!

Hey* very interesting entry!

marissa

hey i know what you mean in the parigraph above about people cutting...

love always*

marissa*

omg its drives my crazy too how guys act different around their friends!but i dont know why!

love always

marissa

hey thx i sent you a thing my name will me mrtdott3@hotmail.com

luv much      marissa

i am feeling the same way you are do you have any kind of messenger?like icq or aim or msn or yahoo?

luv much         -marissa

yeh thats a good idea, ill have to set up one they dont know about though becasue they have their own diaries.

yeh punk rocks.

your welcome. it helps me too.

yeh when it happened i worte down everything on paper, lyrics, kind of, but im scared of showing my bandmates. thats ace about wirte stuff for your mates band! what type of jusic is it?

yeh thats the thing, i did it before ages ago and my friend had done it for awhile and she got somewhat addicted to doing it, and i still did it, but it worked, i dont know why, and it shouldnt, but it did.

yeh, im worried that the only time im me is online and drunk. i think im me then anyways. i dont know, i have good friends.  maybe you should just forget about your friend, if she doesnt want to help you deal with stuff youd be better of not stressing over it. yeh thats bad about your friend. god. but i guess things are good for her right now???? its the whole balance thing. dont feel guilty, gets you messed up about it, its bad enough for you to justify yourself for feeling bad. if that made any sense at all.

well im trying, im in a band now, it really helps. i dont know why, but i thought of it and i was just so happy, it was one of those "wow, this is what i want to do" cos iv never been certain with anything, only that i was gonna try and make it work for me.

im adding you too. :D

yeh the flooling everybody. like you feel your not who you really are? yeh. i feel like that. and your friend, i dont know, i told my friend when my mum died and she just told me that wed go out somewhere, she never talked to me about it and thats all i wanted to do, but she tried to distract me, not becasue she was being heartless, but because i think she didnt know what to say to me, people find that stuff really realy hard. they want to help, but they dont want to make you feel like "how you would know???"

becasue me and mum were so close, but she never knew who i was when she wasnt around, for cutting myself months after she went, expecially when deep down it had nothing to do with the saddest part of my life, but stupid teenage angst. but people have problems and sometimes they mess up. im sure your nan knows all this.

and you know it might not be alright, but if you keep hoping that theres some balance and things will eventually turn around, i dont know, but it keeps you going. look at all the peoplein the world that have hadamazing lives, it jsut didnt start off so great.

i hoped this was at least alittle bit helpful.

Oh yea, it's fine if you use it :) I dun mind...

Well I'm glad you're okay :D
I've missed yoU!!

What's up?
<33becca

honey I haven't heard from you in forever...

are you okay?

*hugs*

tons of love,

becca

I love that butterfly pic, I have it too, I got it from broken butterfly.....

I'm sorry you feel like this honey....I can relate.

How come you haven't replied?

Love you!

<3 becca

Remember? I talked to you on DownToYou and then told you about my other diary? ThillY :P So that why you weren't acting mad at me  on tinkerbell  when you thought I copied you :P

Loves you!

So tired going to go watch friends!

hehe :P

<33333

Hey honey *hugs you*  awww I'm so sorry about you feeling like this! I wish I could do something to help :(  You will get over cutting, you can do this! And we're all backing you up 100% I promise you that! *hugs*

Love you....

XoX Rebekka XoX

Hey lovey <3 awww! I'm author of the day  Made me so happy! *hugs you* aww honey :( I'm so sorry you feel like this....I understand.....I know you can get over cutting sweet heart, I KNOW you can. It's takes time, but you will! I believe in you  *hug* I'm so sorry, I don't know what to say.....

Love you soooooo much, Best friends forever beautiful.

<3 Becca

i luv the phrase!

marissa

hey, im so sorry that you feel this way, i wish i could help you and clean up your wounds for you, but i cant. how long have you been cutting for, or was this a one off? I also cut, so i kinda know how your feeling. If you need to speak to anyone, feel free to add me or e-mail me, forever.and.a.day_@hotmail.com and ill talk to you or whatever,

Forever.and.a.day_ XxX

Aww thanks!

Your one of my favs too!

Love you!

x3

[tinkabell4eva]

haha don't worry about it!

I forgive you, I'm not mad anymore lol!

:( I don't know why you can't comment on my new entries

Oh don't worry, I didn't mind changing it! I like it better now, it's more original :)

Love yoU!

<3 Becca <3

Yes, I forgive you.....I'm changing that entry because now I can't think of it as my own. Oh well :)

Blah blah blah, soooo tired!

Love ya!

<3 Becca <3

thanks. im glad u liked the poem. n im sure that by the time u r my age u will have left me in the dust! but thats alright....as long as its u..*smile*...u r such a wonderful person...im lucky to ever have met u! i hope u have a great day! God Bless.

~Alesha~